Perrie Edwards has revealed she suffered two heartbreaking baby losses, Daily Mail reports.
The Little Mix star, 32, gave birth to her first child Axel with footballer Alex Oxlade-Chamberlain in 2021, but in a no-holds barred interview for Paul C Brunson’s We Need To Talk podcast, has shared she lost a baby just months earlier.
Perrie Edwards shared that she first miscarried early into her first pregnancy, and discovered the devastating loss when she started bleeding and headed to the doctors.
Perrie Edwards then went onto reveal that a year after giving birth to her ‘rainbow baby’ Axel, she discovered she was pregnant again, but tragically lost her baby at 24 weeks.
Speaking about her son, Perrie Edwards said: ‘Axel’s a rainbow baby.
‘So I had a miscarriage very early on with my first ever pregnancy, and it was so early. I remember finding out I was pregnant.
‘Obviously, I started bleeding not long after, and I went to the hospital and I had the scan and they were like, ‘There’s no baby.”
‘And I was like, ‘oh, I’ve made this up. Maybe I got a false positive or something.’ And I remember being on my own at the appointments because nobody was there.’
Perrie Edwards added that due to her miscarriage, she was ‘on edge’ while she expecting her son Axel, admitting she ‘just wanted to get past’ the 12-week scan.
‘And then when I had Axel, when I was pregnant with him, like, I loved being pregnant, it was one of the happiest times of my life. Like, I just love carrying babies,’ she said.
‘And it was lovely. But I was a bit on edge thinking, oh, gosh, like, I want to get past the 12 weeks. I want to get past this. And when I get past every scan and that pregnancy was complete bliss, it was perfect.’
Perrie Edwards then revealed the heartbreaking moment she learned she’d miscarried again following her 20-week scan, having learned she was pregnant again while rehearsing for Little Mix’s final tour in 2022.
She continued: ‘And then we fell pregnant again after. So maybe a year and probably not even. Actually, yeah. Not even a year, because Axel wasn’t even walking yet and we were pregnant.
‘And I remember thinking, right, I found out when I was rehearsing for the Little Mix tour, the last Little Mix tour, I was at rehearsals and I thought, oh, I don’t feel good. Every, every symptom under the sun. I was like, I think I’m pregnant.’
‘And then we went for what was a 20-week scan, but we were actually 22 weeks, and that was just the worst day of my life. Like horrendous.
‘And I just knew something was wrong in the scan, and he just kept going over the same thing, over the same thing… I’ve never experienced an out-of-body experience where everything goes in slow motion.’
Recalling the moment she and Alex returned home from the hospital after learning the devastating news, she said: ‘So then I remember sobbing. He [Alex] was injured at the time and he couldn’t really drive.
‘He was struggling to drive, but I couldn’t see straight. I was just distraught. And yeah, we basically lost the baby at like 24 weeks.’
‘It’s weird because the first time it happened, I think because it was so early, I was like, oh, that’s hard. But I think when you’re fully, like carrying in your 24 weeks and you’ve planned out like that room and all these things, it’s really hard.’
‘And nobody knows other than, like, immediate friends and family. And I remember, like, shortly after, like, friends would message and be like, ”how’s the bump?” And I’ll be like, ”there is no bump.”’
Praising her husband-to-be Alex, Perrie admitted that she’s embraced his ‘laid-back’ and ‘levelheaded’ nature after struggling to overcome a ‘toxic’ relationship during her younger years.
She said: ‘Like, little things might happen, and I’d think, ”Oh, now he’s going to kick off, he’s not going to like this.” And I’d be like, ”Oh, this happened.” And he’d be like, ”Alright,” and it would throw me.
‘He’s very mature. He’s very laid back. He’s very levelheaded. He’s not the type to get mad or get angry or get funny about things.’
After kickstarting her solo career in 2023, Perrie is set to release her new song If He Wanted To He Would later this week.
Earlier this year, Perrie admitted she fears she ‘might die’ as she opened up about her ongoing battle with panic disorder.
The former Little Mix star revealed she finds it difficult to spend time alone, fearing she could suffer a life-threatening panic attack without anyone around to help.
In an interview on Alison Hammond’s Big Weekend, Perrie invited the presenter into her home and spoke openly about how anxiety has affected her everyday life.
Perrie said: ‘I’ve developed panic disorder. So it’s the fear of having a panic attack. A few years ago, I started suffering from severe panic attacks.
‘I then developed a fear of having one again because I was like, if I’m on my own and have a panic attack, I might die, and nobody will be here to help.’
She candidly added: ‘That’s why I’m never on my own. Never. I’m always with somebody. I don’t like the feeling of feeling like I’m gonna die.’